dirty paws.

I love being able to listen to new music and sort of let the day slow down as I fully enjoy the moment. When I was younger, I preferred the shock of heavy metal and the underlying fury of the music.  Now that I'm older, I think softer voices and crooned tunes speak to me more.  Not that I don't like metal anymore! I just tend to look for the classical or indie genres more when I'm scrolling through my iTunes.  While heavy metal spoke to my internalized battles for self-esteem and insecurity, indie and classical make me want to expand - like maybe reach into myself and pluck out my heart and dust all the unnecessary negativity off before putting it back inside.  That's weird, right? That, kids, is a sign of maturity!

Anyway, that's my terrible segue into making a list of things I'd like to do with a boyfriend. A topic of conversation that has been pitted into my every day life here and there now that November is upon us and next month, it'll be my 24th birthday. 24th! And then after that comes 25 and I can't even say I'm in my early twenties anymore.  Where did time go?

I'm writing this down here now, so I don't forget if I ever do manage to snag someone.  I'll probably add more as I go...

• make a mixed cd for him; not just romantic, cutesy songs that remind me of us, but also songs I love and songs that have been there for me when I suffered through obstacles - it's like an unconventional way of writing a letter, I think. This way, he can learn about me when I haven't written anything.
• go to concerts together; same concept as the idea above, except I would really love it if it was a group/artist we both liked - which is why I'd prefer someone who has similar musical tastes as I do. That way, we can both enjoy ourselves and understand what this moment might mean for the other person. I went to a Coldplay concert and the couple that sat in front of me was really cute, haha. Not too much PDA, but just enough for me to notice it was a special moment for them, even when I just glanced at them.
• go to an outdoor movie screening/play; I went to one once after grocery shopping and it was really fun. A Shakespeare performance with simple sandwiches.
• spend the whole date just cuddling and sleeping; yes, I'm serious. I think just being able to cuddle is one of the most intimate things you can do with someone - not necessarily romantically, but it'd probably feel even better to do it with someone you like. Maybe music could even be playing in the background so we'd be silent and just listening.. comfortable silence!
• have many dates where we just stay in, order take-out (or after cooking something ourselves) and curl up and watch movies together; gloomy days would be perfect for something like this.  And it'd just be all about dressing down and being comfortable - even wearing glasses, if he wears contacts regularly like I do - and spend low key time together.
• make a small road trip somewhere in California; it doesn't necessarily have to be really far - maybe it could just even be a day to the beach, or the mountains.  Somewhere to get away without having to cash out too much money.
• go to Disneyland together!!! I don't think an explanation is necessary for this, and while Disneyland is a must, going to Universal and Six Flags and all those other theme parks would be pretty gnarly, too.

Anyway, that's all I can really think of for now, haha. Start of a busy few weeks until the end of the semester in early December. Just gotta hang on until then. Yay for my first November post~